Frantic is how I would describe the past few weeks. Actually I have been "frantic" a lot in my life. I got the quote above from the book MEDITATIONS FOR WOMEN WHO DO TOO MUCH by Anne Wison Schaef.
I have always thought of myself as a woman who "does too much", but I never seem to get anything done, so I've never said out loud, "I DO TOO MUCH!" It's more like I whisper, "i do too much", because I can't see how anyone who looks at me, my day-to-day life, my house (!), etc. could ever think that I do too much! But quite often it's those everyday things that absolutely have to be done that become "too much". They have be done over and over and over again. No wonder they never get done!!
And when I'm really feeling overwhelmed it's usually because I've put too much on myself; created the problem for myself!
Anyway, I've become so accustomed to "doing" things "frantically" that sometimes that's the only way I can get something done. The comment following the above quote brings out that women who do too much (which, I believe, is all women) tend to think of the end of the year as the time to tidy up loose ends and get caught up before starting the new year. We set ourselves hard-to-reach goals and then go about being hard on our "perfectionist-ic" selves, thus sabotaging ourselves before we've even started! I know this well.
So I hope that I can be a little less frenzied this year and a little easier and gentler to myself. Here's hoping that I don't load myself down with too much "to do", and that instead I try to enjoy each day more. My kids are growing up and I don't want to miss anything important in their lives. I've become accustomed to going through a day as if it were something on a checklist -- There! (check) That's done! That's not the way I want my days to be. Hmmmmm. I see a lot of potential for improvement in 2006!
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